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Been wanting to post lately,but too caught up with various stuff.

Will post tomorrow.

Nites

- Ben
3:39 AM

Terminus.
3:14 AM

There's no point doing things secretly and keeping quiet about it when its so damn obvious.

Fault's mine,so I won't stop you,suit yourself

I guess our friendship had no real value.
12:07 AM

wow finally there's a new clip from the upcoming Resident evil:Degeneration movie,woohoo XDD

Capcom's first ever CGI animated movie film,sweeet

Finally something that follows the game's decent storyline,seriously the live action resident evil movies sucked,crappy storyline,weird characters from nowhere.

But yeaaa finally a game story movie F55

And they got Leon and Claire as the 2 main characters..yeaaaa F5555


Here's the first trailer




Second trailer at Comic con 08





aaaand the newest clip





Here's alittle teaser,the first 18mins or so of e movie =P


Part 1



Part 2




ahhh next year,can't wait!!
6:30 PM

I simply hate going for a haircut,theres just something about me and haircuts that irks me.Alot.

It was really unmanageable past few days so off i go for a nice haircut,and come back home looking like dumb school student =_=

fringe so damn short and the whole outlook is so...kiddyish x_x

argh I'm not gonna look at myself for a week! F555555


And after showering when I came home,I conveniently ended up with 2 deep cuts on my face

I don't even know how i got em -_-' Staring at myself with a bad haircut in the mirror wasn't bad enough,had to stare at myself bleeding as well


*facepalm*



stings real bad,gonna see the doc tomorrow.

T.T wth
9:13 PM

Forget the ones that forget you.Remember those that made a difference.
2:52 AM

ah..just woke up about half hour ago

arghhh!! my internal clock is so damn screwed that its not even funny X_X

okay,this is a rough example of my everyday clock;

Wake up arn 12-2pm,I can't usually eat lunch when i woke up,even if its at lunch time,cos I'll still be in the breakfast mood x.x the small eye pigpig should knw,went out wit her to pepper lunch on monday arn 11..I barely touched my food =_=

So,breakfast around 1+,but at least I'll have the option to choose my breakfast cereal,ranging from Honey stars,banana nut crunch,waffles crisp,corn flakes and oreo Os(with marshmallows! *.*)

so I'll be stuffed until maybe around 4 or 5,which is when I'll eat my lunch.

Followed by dinner at around 10pm-1am

Sleep arrives at 3-4am





..


Yea,that's really bad..

I've been trying to get myself to go to the dentist in the morning,so every night before sleep I'll remind myself "ok,tomorrow wake up at 9 and visit the dentist,yea! *full of determination*"

*Next day*

"..har..wad the nonsense..1.xxpm?!..haix =_=" *facepalm self*








T.T
2:13 PM

So on this totally uneventful,and extremely boring day,I went to read manga.

I found that there's a certain genre of manga called "one shot",cause those types of manga are made up of only one chapter.

Quite the quick reads for the usual person's 5-10mins break from their daily dose of rush hour.

But most of the one shot stories are really good,some made me think for a moment about certain issues.

aaaaanyway,here's a nice one for starters

clickity click

hmm..gonna start saving up for a keyboard/piano
1:56 AM

Been a boring week,nothing of importance to do,hardly any communication with anyone,just alot of unimportant moments.
5:35 PM

I realize my mum knows very little about me.

For one,she doesn't know (or seem to believe),that I can draw,or write stories,can play musical instruments,or even have dreams of my own.
11:39 PM

I kinda felt lost at the start of today.

Tried talking to my mum about my future,what I can do,what i want to do

Its just no use,I could tell she wasn't taking me seriously,probably thinking I'm still small kid in need of guidance.

Guidance from her

She just goes on and on about how I should continue taking engineering in Uni or if not sign on in the army if I get a good post,and earn alot starting young,like my eldest cousin is doing.

But I can't..Its gotta stop.

Its only a certain distance where parents can guide you,where you need them to.After that you gotta pick what you really want.

I can't pick engineering,my interest,my desires in life,its not there.

I can't sign on either,My greatest dream is freedom,to be free to go anywhere i want,to see the whole world,do all the things i can,like..like bungee jumping,sky diving and alot more that's out there.

Ok i know to most people I'll sound like a small kid,I can't blame them if they thought I was not being realistic,I mean..my own parents don't take me seriously when I honestly open to them about my important things to do in life,so who would anyway?

And I did realize its true that fear keeps a person in check,more so in our tiny country.

With tax for nearly anything the government can lay its eyes on,and the deadly fluctuations of the economy,many of our families are being affected,some more worse than others.

Because of how its always been like that,young people who often grow up with dreams that they CAN accomplish,drop it,give it up,for the sake of being in line.Fear that stepping out of the line that's been set as the norm will easily lead to instability in their financial lives and the financial lives of their family.

Its terrible,all this way,in sec schl,in poly,even now,I see countless people giving up the careers where their interest,and talents lay,and instead sit at a desk,for the sake of keeping together what they have.And they do that,all the way,till the day they retire,or die.

How many of you have asked your parents before,if they manage to live out their dreams,do what they really want.Many of em give em up for what they later use as an excuse and tell their kids "its cos i couldn't that i wan the best for u,so that you can".But in the end its like a neverending cycle.

Alright,this is where people will say I'm selfish,but I can't,I can't give up the things i want to do,I can't give up pursuing my interests for some deskjob at some office.Even if the deskjob pay is high.

Many of us end up living under the expectations of parents,walking in a direction shown by them;so much so so few bother to ask themselves "what do I really wanna do?"

I took engineering in poly because of encouragement and expectations of my parents,and I had to learn it the hard way,through multiple failures,that living under other peoples wants won't lead to happiness and success.Its what YOU want that will really make the difference between up and down.

That's why I'm not gonna take engineering in Uni,its out.My mum laughed at me when I told her about my interests in psychology,or Arts.

But I really don't find it funny.

I'm an idiot in the sense where I don't get intimidated by the things others get intimidated by.

I refuse to destroy my passions and interests because of income stability or anything like that.I never loved money,and I don't want to,cos it can't give me my happiness.

People who often venture out of the usual pampered circle often never get any support,care or concern from others simply because they chose to take a different path.

But you know what

They're the ones that get both success and happiness of life at the end of the race.


Not the one that gets intimidated by life's hurdles.


All its really takes,is courage.
12:33 AM

Have you ever had this repeated feeling that you've alot of great things to accomplish,a wonderful life to live,but something's just holding you back?

Something,but you don't know what it is.

Clearly most people I tried talking to bout this don't even feel things like that.

Their future plans for life are the same things;graduate,get a job,get a family,have kids,grow em up.

tch..isit so hard to find people who want to do something with their lives instead of going with the mainstream that generations upon generations been following?

or isit just plain old fear of stepping away from the norm?
2:00 PM

Have been watchin heroes,you can say i'm in a sort of heroes marathon,lol

In Eppy 18,there was this convo between nathan and linderman,and i found it rather,interesting

Linderman:there comes a time when a man asks himself,whether he wants a life of happiness or a life of meaning.

Nathan:I'd like to have both

Linderman:Can't be done.Two very different paths.I mean,to be truly happy,a man must live absolutely in the present.No thought of what's gone before and no thought of what lies ahead.But,a life of meaning,a man is condemned to wallow in the past and obsess about the future.


If i saw by that theory there,clearly I seem to have picked a life of meaning.

Maybe its a wrong choice,maybe its not.


I don't know,yet.
3:21 AM

Like this song alot.The video can be creepy to some people,so yea watch at your own risk.

oh yea,the people in chains got no eyes,hmm I think I shoulda mentioned that earlier


LOL

toothache is gone,I seem to recover from physical injuries/pains in no time. *thumbs up*
1:50 AM

It hurts..

The pain,its really irritating...


I dun even understand how stuff like that can happen..





























WHY DO I SUDDENLY HAVE AN IRRITATING TOOTHACHE!!?? \T_____T/




lol T.T'l|
7:58 PM

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/385201/1/.html


Most of the stuff in it were fine,

till


On a lighter note, the Minister Mentor touched on what he calls assortative mating, that is, finding a spouse at your level - something he strongly believes in.

He said: "I have explained this. I think I lost votes after I explained the awful truth. Nobody believed it, but slowly it dawned on them, especially the graduates, that yes, you marry a non-graduate, then you worry about whether or not your son or daughter is going to make it to the university.


w.t.f?!

The future of SG youths is gonna be bleak with this kinda mentoring.


*rolls eyes*
11:53 PM

I kinda stopped talking to people on msn,well at least stopped talkin with most people

I'm getting kinda sick of this

I realize when I see other people I know,being always so active and happy,its cos they got friends

And I meant, Real life friends,not just some bunch of people you meet from online sources

I think that's what separates me and most others

Its all fun having people to chat with but even then it only goes so far,there are some things that can't be expressed through mere msn chatting whatsoever

I lack in real life friends..alot

sigh...to the point I only feel envious and to certain degree,unfair jealousy towards those who have that kind of company that i lack.Going out often with company,or even at home still in the midst of friends they know.It might be hectic at times,but I sure won't mind

true that some friends i met from places like maplestory eventually became real life friends

like mouse,celest,and opusrepublic

I tink I realize my reason for loving my guild.Even though its usually only once a year that we go out together as a group,its the one time where i can feel I'm not alone.Its a pretty pathetic link,but still one nevertheless.

I'm drifting away from people I never met in real life before,I just lost interest in them,they can't make me feel any better,because they're never really there

When my com breaks down one day,and my phone spoils,what then? These people who never even seen me in reality can't do nuts

I rarely tell people anything,I hate people taking pity or any of that,I've also gave up on people saying "I'll be there,thats wad friends are for" bla bla,its all just cheap talk,just a way to produce a good first impression

When countless people said that and never meant it,you'll obviously stop believing

I think till now,I haven't completely trusted anyone,

Some are well on their way to earning it though

But the only person I did trust fully is missing anyway

tsk..

I can't seem to confide into anyone my feelings or my thoughts,not that I don't want to,but until I know that person is someone I can lay it on,I probably never speak.Its hard to cos I only open to someone when they open up to me first,until people take the risk and confide their lives to me,I cannot speak in a deeper level.

Because until then I can't feel a connection


How fitting
1:16 PM

...sigh..
11:56 PM

Was lurking(lol) around playpark forums today,I realize a few forummers had this personality test resulted on their siggys,so Ben boy decided to try it out also =P



most people's were rather colourful,as in their colored bar n Grey bar were not all one sided but some one the left,some on the right..


Wow..my personality is pretty one sided I guess =_='l|

These were the 4 possible types for those somewhat similar to me



and..out of the lot,this was the one given to me..hmmm <.<

http://www.mypersonality.info/personality-types/infp/


After reading through most of the links found there and explanation,bla bla,


It described me very well,so..amusing

Some of the quotes that fit the bill

- INFPs struggle with the issue of their own ethical perfection, e.g., performance of duty for the greater cause. An INFP friend describes the inner conflict as not good versus bad, but on a grand scale, Good vs. Evil.

- Feeling people makes decisions based on feelings, so the Introverted Feeling function allows a person to know what they value. It is the ability to see through others and know what they are really like as if they had an internal radar. When it identifies a person with similar values there is a desire to connect.

- An INFP's feelings are often guarded, kept safe from attack and ridicule. Only a few, close confidants are permitted entrance into this domain.

- INFPs do not measure life in terms of the number of friends and acquaintances they have but rather by the quality of their friendships. For INFPs, the distinction between friends and acquaintances is very important; an acquaintance is someone they spend time with while a friend is someone with whom an INFP can share ideas and feelings. Their most valuable friends are people who understand their important values and accept them unconditionally.

- INFP's look at humanity at both the individual (human-to-human) and societal levels. One common discouragement for INFP's is that societal change often seems impossible. When INFPs become discouraged, they may need some time and space to rediscover their values and a sense of inner peace. The conflict between their ideal world and "reality", as they see it can cause depression or withdrawal from the world unless they have people that support them in their projects.






Now...

I am hungry..hmm =(
1:20 AM