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After watching Monsters vs Aliens 3d with Terence and Apple,I kinda got hooked to animated films LOL


soooo..I decided to spend my day watching some

First was Igor,abit boring every now and then but still a decent show.

Madagascar 2 - This was one was hilariously good

Coraline - Okay this movie doesn't come out till Sept,butttt..what the heck,i went ahead and downloaded it.Having been a creation of Tim Burton,it definitely didn't fall short of my expectations ;D A definite definite must watch for all! XDD


ok ciao
10:12 PM

& sometimes I'm sensitive when I'd rather not be




blehhhh
12:31 AM

I'm feeling lazy to post about all the interesting events so..I'll do it tomorrow! :D (tomorrow means probably Saturday or Sunday)

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Does everyone have emotions that are like the ocean,unpredictable and ever changing at the moment?

I hope so.

I'm just irked.Seems like every time I make new friends,I just get distant from previous ones.

Its annoying how some just start conversations when they feel like it,or when they need someone to listen,and yet they can't give even a little reply or "Hi" when I try to start a conversation.

Some start talking again after a damn long time,by which I hardly notice they exist.

Even worse are those that give replies that obviously have "busy/not really interested to bother" written all over it.

They're better off not talking in the first place.

Okay,I know that doesn't make any sense.

That's why I hate ranting,its a mindless process where logic goes down the drain,and we just turn mindless and shoot at everything and anything blindly to the point of not even knowing what we're saying.


So,the ranting ends here.

And that's why I spend a lot of my time reading books,instead of talking.


Saves effort.
Saves some mood swings.

I think most people just make friends for personal gain.

Say I view things negatively.

See if I care.
12:36 AM

Live above the influence


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Found this little article in my mail this morning while browsing through,crap I don't even remember who sent it,but I think its a good read,and appropriate,seeing how most of my days this week in camp was full of anger,irritation and disgust at how many of the guys treat love and relationships so simple and rather low.

ok nuff said.Long read ahead,don't start if you're not up to it.lol

PARTNERS AND MARRIAGE
By Eduardo Jose E. Calasanz

I have never met a man who didn't want to be loved. But I have seldom met a
man who didn't fear marriage. Something about the closure seems
constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what it
cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within our lives.

When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a
mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social acceptability,
or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the logical thing to
do. Then I watched, as they and their partners became embittered and petty
in their dealings with each other. I looked at older couples and saw, at
best, mutual toleration of each other. I imagined a lifetime of loveless
nights and bickering and could not imagine subjecting myself or someone else
to such a fate.

And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to
glow in each other's presence. They seemed really in love, not just
dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other's foibles. It was an
astounding sight, and it seemed impossible. How, I asked myself, can they
have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the others
habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem unable to even
stay together, much less love each other?

The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to the
claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad
relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to succeed.
It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good relationship
from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in the early
stages. Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see
yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by
which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way to
see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people
choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated period
of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side.

This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others deny
the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other apart
from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the presence of
unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them from having any
normal perception of what life would be like together.

The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time friends
before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each
other's laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their
worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept up
into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.

This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of
your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other
keys to compatibility. One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much
you will enjoy each others company over the long term.

If your laughter together is good and healthy and not at the expense of
others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the
child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise
each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep
the world around you new.

Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most
intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn
sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to
turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your
relationship can become based on being critical together.

After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you
respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their
relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They
find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the
emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship
ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your partner
treats people or circumstances in a way you can't accept, you will
inevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals
with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love
will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you
each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not
respect each other.

Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on
the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart resides
in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of the
unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to the
literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance does not
become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated and
misunderstood.

There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself. We all have
unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private
commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny.

If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts
of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find yourselves
growing further apart until you live in separate worlds where you share the
business of life, but never touch each other where the heart lives and
dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of petty
hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and unsatisfied
with their mates.

So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner with
whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take place in
your hearts. I pick my words carefully when I speak of a miracle. But I
think it is not too strong a word. There is a miracle in marriage. It is
called transformation.

Transformation is one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes
the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love
becomes a child. We never question these, because we see them around us
every day. To us they are not miracles, though if we did not know them they
would be impossible to believe.

Marriage is a transformation we choose to make. Our love is planted like a
seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that will
blossom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come.

If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If you have
chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, the bloom will be flawed. We are
quite willing to accept the reality of negative transformation in a
marriage. It was negative transformation that always had me terrified of the
bitter marriages that I feared when I was younger. It never occurred to me
to question the dark miracle that transformed love into harshness and
bitterness. Yet I was unable to accept the possibility that the first heat
of love could be transformed into something positive that was actually
deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh passion. All I could
believe in was the power of this passion and the fear that when it cooled I
would be left with something lesser and bitter.

But there is positive transformation as well. Like negative transformation,
it results from a slow accretion of little things. But instead of death by a
thousand blows, it is growth by a thousand touches of love. Two histories
intermingle. Two separate beings, two separate presence, two separate
consciousness come together and share a view of life that passes before
them. They remain separate, but they also become one.

There is an expansion of awareness, not a closure and a constriction, as I
had once feared. This is not to say that there is not tension and there are
not traps. Tension and traps are part of every choice of life, from
celibate to monogamous to having multiple lovers.. Each choice contains
within it the lingering doubt that the road not taken is somehow more
fruitful and exciting, and each becomes dulled to the richness that it
alone contains.

But only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and be leavened by the
knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one. Those who
live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared company, but
there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment that deepens that
experience into something richer and more complex.

So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong
reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of
transformation. If you believe in your heart that you have found someone
with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can
resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not
chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons
that your love will experience, then you may be ready to seek the miracle
that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well
made is worth your patience. When the time comes, a thousand flowers will
bloom...endlessly.
3:47 AM

Friday;


Booked out at 6pm roughly,initial plan was to go sakae.

Terence wanted to go take his car,so thinesh,apple n sharif decided to tag along with him,while the other 6(including me) decided to go ahead first.

Halfway through the train Mr Thinesh calls up n tells sakae is full and can't make reservation,so change of plans,sakura buffet at yio chu kang.

*10mins later*

Sakura at YCK also full (wth?!)

So the whole lot of us just decided to go on ahead to orchard and wait for the next call.

Lucky enough the sakura at orchard plaza was still available,phew =_=


Started eating arn hmm.7.30+? Around there,10 of us running in and out of the room placing orders and loading plates after plate.

Though I think the rest can't really eat much,it was amusing watching their surprise when I kept eating after everyone was full

>:D


what..really ma,make full use of a buffet lol!

the ice cream was not so bad,the seoul garden's better


Eat and eat until 9.30

Walked around aimlessly at cine,thinesh wanted to buy shirt.


But in the end he didn't.Typical indian.ahem lol

Half of em decided to go home after that,aiyaaa I don't understand,why go home so early on a friday night?!

Left me,Terence,apple,sharif and thinesh,so Terence decided to give us a ride home,or so was the initial plan.

Until thinesh and sharif got high in the car while listening to poker face <_<

SO terence decided to give us an in-car tour around sg nightlife,which was rather interesting.

For one,we drove around geylang's red light district (lol!) while terence gave us a little tour talk on which are the legal brothels,which area what race,how the police deployed in the area go about working and stuff.

Count on terence to be knowledgeable on sg streets o.ob

And then we also drove around some other places.

Around near 11 we decided to head home.

Was on the expressway when we saw this really cool accident.4 cars banged into each other in one nice row. LOL

really cool imo XD

Thanks to thinesh's bad street navigation,the journey to drop him off took long,followed by sharif,apple and finally me.

Realize terence doesn't stay that far off from my area lol

Saturday;

Movie marathon day,watched:

Fast and furious 4
Inkheart
The knowing
The curious case of Benjamin Button
The uninvited
X-men Origins(well I watched in theatres but didn't hurt to watch again :P)

Followed by lotsa hack and slash with devil may cry 4.

Sunday;

Back to book in day,so its all slack and Loco roco 2.LOL



1 more week to pass out.WOOO!


..But that means 1 whole week of drill,drill and more drills.







NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!11!!1!onE!!!Eleventyone!!!1!


D;
4:24 PM

If you do not dare,you cannot save anyone

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Had a crazy and fun evening/night.Will post about it later..like laaaaater in e noon .-.p

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would you know the anguish that time can inflict,where everyone you ever wanted to save is already broken before you can reach them?


its a guiltless guilt,an endless regret,an unjustifiable self blame that no new day or rising sun can liberate you from.



shh
2:29 AM

It's mothers day today.


And mum went to work


..sigh =_=


Had guard duty yesterday,so there went Saturday.Although now everyone knows not to disturb me when I'm asleep.

I can be a little violent when half asleep.

Just a little ok! D:

:X

So like everyone immediately rushed up to bunk to change and get out of camp as soon as we got to dismount at 8am

cept for me,who slowly went up,put my things down,slowly dragged myself to the toilet to brush teeth,shave etc etc..


and I slept in bunk.For an hr.

I'm probably the first of my kind.Everyone was like zooming around me wearing clothes and getting out asap,the last fella left around 8.20 or so.

Anyway,then I slept till 9.10++

Went to shower,change clothes slowly,and left camp..around say,9.40am

x.x

Went around amk and bishan trying to find something nice for mum.

Ended up settling with a card,

though I ended up buying lotsa stuff for myself

:X


And I got Devil may cry 4 for pc,like finally! *__*


Ok gonna hafta book in soon.

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I'm not gonna sms/msn/call anyone anymore,I'm bloody sick of trying to catch up with people only to not get any reply back,and its been an aggravating week with that.

Anyone want to talk,initiate the conversation,if not just piss off.

So there,don't blame me if any of you died and I don't know until like centuries later.


Ok,evidently I'm still suffering from lack of sleep.

Don't freaking disturb me.
6:03 PM

How the hell I had a nice normal week for once,I don't know,but I had a nice normal week comprised of laughing around with everyone,going out with friends and etc etc.

It was a nice change of setting.




Went to watch Xmen Origins on thurs night during nights out,lets see

I'd give it 3.5 out of 5,pretty good,but not great.

Probably cos the cool characters didn't get much scenes,save for wolverine(obviously cos its about him lol!)

Cool chars like:

Zero
Gambit
Emma frost(honestly la,wth she only appear for 3mins at most,give and take)

Still a good watch,and recommended :D (cyclops was a nub in the movie,hahahaha >:D )

And we all sneaked food in,thanks to Benedict's bag.

Before that we split up like little kids to buy whatever food we wanted from wherever we wanted,me and Ben headed to kfc,and I bought jolli bean's hotcakes with maple syrup,which was okay-ish lol.Only thing was the I didn't want to bring it into the theatre in fear of spilling the syrup into Ben's bag,so we just randomly walked into a book store,and ate behind the last shelf of books ._.'

Post movie was the most crazy,yet funny part of the nights out,mainly cos it ended at 9.10pm,and we had timing to meet.

With 20mins left to take a train to the next station and back to camp,we decided to take a cab,or at least that was the initial plan.

Prob was there were 2 escalators,and we ended up splitting up while taking diff escalators,due to panic.

wasted 4 mins just to get down 5 levels ._.

..and the taxi stand had 4 others infront of us.

*facepalm*


Shawn:eh no time la,so many infront
Mandeep:can la,should be quite fast
Emile: no leh,risky
Shawn: ya,might as well take train
Ben: so what now?
Me: Train sounds fine to me,though we hafta rush can't waste more time
Shawn: ok,*starts running to mrt station*
Emile: *run*
Mandeep: *run*
Ben: ok,thats settled then *run*
Me: man..*run*
Apple+YY:*run*
Thinesh:no storm's like cooler!..eh why are they running?
Shariff:um,I dunno.........ok they're gonna take the train

and the 2 of em start running,while arguing bout why storm is cooler than phoenix,hell neither of em were even in the movie..wth la x_x

That wasn't as bad as when we reached yew tee mrt station

*all rushing down escalator*

Me: ok lets all together just run to the shortest route back to camp
Ben: yep!

Next thing we know,all of us ended up running...in different directions. =_='l|

Like every single one of us went a diff direction *facepalm*

Shawn: eh maaran why are you on the other side?!
Me: because this is faster?
Thinesh: helllooo? can someone tell me why we're all over the place?!
Me: well at least you caught up with me
Thinesh: *runs to other side of street*
Me: dude!! what gives?!
Thinesh: I thought this was shorter ._.
Me: ??!?

and we wasted well over 12 mins running like lost mad folks all over the place with everyone else,cept me on the friggin other side of the street (T_T)

At least mine really was the shorter way

But we made it to camp,amazing enough,at 9.29pm.

Movie with some PT,that's really army like =_='




soldiers...sheesh *facepalm*
8:41 PM

Woke up from a dream I can't remember,yet I remember it was significant.

With my head all scrambled,I suddenly remembered something someone last time told me(can't remember who though)

"If you love something,let it go.If it comes back,its yours always,if not its never meant to be"


Honestly,my first thought upon remembering that went

'the hell!? why am I remembering random things like that now'

and then I just sat on my bed pondering about it.




I think I get distracted very easily.




hurray,I found the latest FF13versus trailer(though its all scattered around ;.;) *__* Love the music

Watch FF13 Versus DKΣ3713 in Gaming  |  View More Free Videos Online at Veoh.com
The whole Romeo and Juliet theme is forming out pretty well
I solemnly swear When FF13versus comes out I'll be ready with my ps3.
3:34 PM

The Birthday Massacre - Red Stars

Best of cruel intentions
Finding what they fail to mention
No truth, all pretension
Raise your hand to give attention

You'd give it
We'd take it
You'd build it
We'd break it
You silently erase it
You'd feel it
We'd fake it

It's my red star (steal it)
It's my red star (can't let go)
It's my red star (conceal it)
It's my red star
Oh,I know

Wasted education
Celebrating imitation
Misplaced admiration
Speaking for a generation

You'd give it
We'd take it
You'd build it
We'd break it
You silently erase it
You'd feel it
We'd fake it

It's my red star (steal it)
It's my red star (can't let go)
It's my red star (conceal it)
It's my red star
Oh,I know..
7:14 PM

I wonder why people bother lying so much

Maybe I just see through the pretense easily

Or maybe everyone's just bad at pretending.


sigh..Post not pointing at anyone,on the contrary for once its pointing to everyone around me.


Because everyone tries to pretend

it just falls in vain infront of me..


probably why I can't trust anyone
because noone really trusts me.Or any others for that matter.
2:49 AM

The week went pretty fast in camp.

Some of us talked bout first impression during one night out in the forest.

Most of em had the impression I'm cold and fierce and were intimidated to talk to me..

Apple:you know the first time i saw you was during the test.you were sitting on e same row as me. *nods*
Me: oh..ok (clearly doesn't remember nor bothered to notice who was sitting beside)
Apple: yep.and you looked angry.Like very pissed off.
Me: what?..why did you think tt?
Apple: cos you were all frowning,and you looked at e com like you were effing pissed off with it and like you were gonna all bash it up ._.
Me:??!
Apple: I wanted to ask for some help..but yea ._. I was scared to so I had to ask shawn who was infront of me.
Me:ok ._.


...wth T_T


and they couldn't believe I'm 21 this year.

yay.


lol.


Me:so like..what do you do during your free time?
Apple:*stare* you knw,that is like the old fashion way of talking..
Me:..owkay? so how does the new pattern go?
Apple: oh its "hi","shuttup" and "bye"
Me: But thats...weird
Apple: helllo~ this is the Y generation
Me: man you people are such a screwed up generation..
Apple: you're same age as us too!
Me:how old are you this year?
Apple:19
Me: I'm 21
Apple: *gape* I don't believe
Me: wad..
Apple: thinesh..maaran looks 18 or 19
Thinesh: yea duh tts cos he is
Apple: noooo! he's 21! :O
Thinesh: :O
Me: you really are a screwed up generation..
Naz: AYE THINESH! COME! WHY IS THE SKY..WHITE?
Thinesh: oh wth.shut.up.
Me:...
Apple: *gape*



weird time out in the forest. .____.
1:33 AM