Sunday, July 26, 2009
..don't get it do you?...sigh
you think I'm happy that I'm hearing from you again? You're more wrong than right y'know.
You're not suppose to turn back,you're suppose to walkaway from all of this,you're suppose to keep moving on,that was best for you.
I couldn't do the same,because..I can't.That's why I'm still where we left off,that's why we're crossing paths again because you pull yourself back from the right way.
so..what happened?
You were doing fine all these good while,busy with your own stuff,nothing to do with me,everything was nearly back to normal and looking good,so just keep going,why throw yourself back in here again?
Just leave the whole mess and memories to be with me,I couldn't forget it,its pathetic,I know.You could do what I couldn't and that's walking away,so damn well don't stop.
Forget everything,hate me,ignore me,just tell yourself I don't exist you know.You claim to be so good at lying so it should be no great deal for you right.And all those gifts and stuff I gave you,get rid of em,give em away,throw em,whatever you think fits cos they're not gonna make it easier for you.
I'm nothing worth remembering,but trust me,I'm every bit worth forgetting.C'mon,I was but a dark cloud that just made life hard for you,even you can't disagree on that.
You're wrong bout one thing though;
Non of it was a lie,keep telling yourself it is if that's the best you could do to keep yourself sane,it's fine.
But what you were back then,that was you,without your endless charades of pretense,and changing faces and lies after lies.
Now you're just back to how you were before all of this started,throwing barriers after barriers to cover who you are from everyone.
you can't lie to me,so don't waste your time and mine.
I can't stop you,do what you want,your life is your own.
But don't turn around.Keep going,might take awhile,but you were getting there,so don't hold back.
I always said I'll support you in anything you do,and this,is no different,I made sure you won't hear from me till now,and I intend to keep it that way,for your sake,because that's best for you,cos I want you to get out of this you-me whatever thing.
You're right,we should stop all this.I can't but you can.
And you will.
You want to end this,now I'm giving you an end