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I realize all my fellow mates in camp find me a bore at duty,often complaining I don't talk and just stare off into space,looking emo.Or I just don't respond much.


where has my social skills gone? evaporated into nothingness I suppose


Some damage can be undone.some are meant to hurt,forever,again and again.


I think I just swim endlessly on a mixture of guilt and regret,until its showing all over my face -.-

I wish I could hide my emotions away more professionally,lock it into my heart,and then harden my heart so nothing and no one can get through to,leave it frozen.





Mirror on the wall.
Frame the picture.
Reflect this kiss to wish us all goodnight.
11:20 PM

aiyaaa,need to go sleep in camp,cos of early duty tomorrow morning at 6 T-T

meh































more than anyone else,I hoped you'll wish.
but of cos you wouldn't,you don't have any reason to,not anymore.
like so many other things,its just false hope.
11:07 PM

And to anyone who's gonna approach me to speak about their problems,and reject consolation,I say,


Get over it or shut up about it.











And yes,its my birthday,like it makes any difference.





































The reason why I go out of my way to celebrate the birthdays of those close to me


is so they won't feel ordinary on that day like I do,like its nothing special or like its not worth much concern.

because the feeling,its empty,and when you're done lying past that day,it hurts,alot.

Embrace the day you came to exist with happiness and a smile,not with indifference and melancholy.

9:10 PM

meh
12:08 AM

I..really should stop being concerned about anyone anymore.

"I think its stupid to be so thoughtful in a selfish world"

"Agreed"

11:07 PM

There's a certain peacefulness that only solitude can provide.


One of the few things I hate to admit is that everything is not ok.


So,everything's fine.really.

"how long are you gonna keep everything to yourself?It'll just make the emptiness greater you know.Stop telling yourself you're alone,when you have so many people around you,stop living in the memories of someone from the past.Gone is gone,they won't come back,accept it,and move past it."

".....mm.."

"...what's the matter with you?why are you so stubborn about moving past everything."

"I dunno..I really don't"

6:52 PM

][ "The only people you need in your life are the ones who prove they need you in theirs."

He remained quiet for awhile,staring back at the other,who obviously didn't know the weight of the words he had just spoken,as he busily started munching through his hash brown.

"..need me...need me.hmm,why would someone need me?Does anyone need me now,did anyone need me before?"

He kept pondering over that thought over and over again,alittle confused,but didn't show it.It was one of those times he was thankful for the lack of expression his face usually showed.

"nah,I shouldn't waste my time over such pointless things" he calmly told himself,knowing full well the answer to his own thought.

"If so,then I wouldn't really need anyone y'know?".

"hmmmm?what thing?"came the reply.

Wondering to himself exactly how fast his buddy forget the things he says,he continued eating,trying to push the statement out of his head. ][

off topic: Final fantasy dissidia is aweeeeesome *__*


12:04 PM

hmm






guess I..lose.
11:38 AM

played Final fantasy X after coming home,wooo so fun,even though its the second time I'm playing it lol!
8:08 PM