Thursday, September 23, 2010
All this anger is choking me and I feel like a small kid that still hasn't grown up.sigh.Just get upset when people see me as someone I'm not.Its like my personality and character are all judged before I even showed anything.
I just hate opening up to people,or even talking to anyone at times,always wondering how quick they will characterize me away as however they see fit.
I dunno why my mood gets spoiled so easily.Maybe I'm just too sensitive,or just petty.
Sometimes I feel vengeful for all the stupid reasons.Sometimes I feel so selfish and retarded,wanting everyone around me to suffer like I do,not wanting others to be happy when I'm not.
I feel like a mess,a big fking mess.I doubt anyone can understand me,so just screw it.
I feel so angry and sad and like crying,and I dunno where the effing hell all these feelings are coming from.I want someone to bother,but then I'll just feel like I'm being pitied and lash out in anger,and I don't wanna do that.
I can't even understand myself.So fking fail I am. sigh *facepalm*








